Baby,
Why are you this way?
Why are you doing this to me?
Why?
After all I've done for you.
Why have you become this way, totally the opposite of what you were?
I've loved you for 903 days.
& tomorrow will be the 904th day.
Till now, have I ever given up on you?
Have I turned away from you?
Have I betrayed you?
Have I been heartless towards you?
Have I treated the way you treat me since July?
Did I ever gave you a cold shoulder?
Etc..
Am I totally nothing to you?
Am I just a useless and hopeless piece of sh*t to you?
You always think you're right, even when the fact is that you're wrong.
You don't admit your wrong-doings and mistakes.
Why?
Why do you think so damn highly of yourself?
Why do you only think for yourself and not for others?
Why do you only think about your own happiness and not your loved ones?
Why are you so selfish?
I'll just tell you a few examples.
You got yourself 2 didi, YongHang and Varian.
I'm ok with Varian 'cause he still says hi to me and stuff.
YongHang? No.
He shuns me and stuff.
'cause he thinks I'm after his life.
You? Don't give a damn about my feelings.
Still carry on with him when he's trying to get close to you.
By acting hero, protecting you, saying things like the recent one.
"Trust didi, I will never say things about you" bla bla bla.
Pui.
My foot.
He thinks he's very manly.
Whatever he thinks man.
I don't give a sh*t.
All I care is you.
You both get so close, till you even lied to me to go out with him, be with him.
You even let him bring you home.
What's this?
Your new boyfriend?
"Oh didi, you mean so much to me."
Wow, so touching huh.
Etc.. Etc..
Then, I got myself a close friend, now a sister to me.
& you get jealous so easily and kp at me.
What's with you?
You freaking betrayed me for him and now you wanna stop me from having a sister when I did nothing with her, even TAKING PHOTOS?
Like what you did.
Wow. Just wow.
How selfish can you get?
And even today.
All I asked was if I could bring you home.
I just wanted a confirmed answer to whether I can or cannot.
& you just scolded me, saying I'm pestering you?
I'm a pain in your ass?
Fine then.
Leave me if you want.
I cared about you, worried you might collapse anytime 'cause of your sickness.
& I also wanna give you hugs which I didn't give for a long time.
Worst of all, just 'cause Glenda talked to me.
Telling me how annoying she finds Ben to be.
You frigging used her as an excuse.
Or in fact.
Make use of her to accuse me.
HELLO.
I have no relation with her neither did I do anything with her.
What's wrong with you?
You're despicable.
Making use of people to accuse me of things which I've never done or didn't even think of doing?
Please la.
I bring her home for what?
I tell you.
There's a looooooooooooooot more things to say.
I just don't feel like saying them out.
I admit.
I have mistakes myself.
It's your own loss for not treasuring me.
Where can you find a guy who's so devoted to you despite your illness and everything?
Your wrong-doings?
Your mistakes?
Despite how much you've hurted the guy.
Being with you all the time.
I decide my own fate.
I don't care if you say that my fate is that I'll not be able to love you.
I don't care if God has decided my fate, or what my fate is supposed to be.
I'll go against it and fight to protect what I love and hold dear.
Especially you, my darling.
I'll change my fate, to loving you.
For the rest of my life.
Being with you, taking care of you.
You've been rooted to my heart.
Iloveyou, truly.
520,13143344.
Forever, even after the sky falls.
You'll always be my baby, my beloved darling.
Joe.